no more teasings, no more questions

i admit that i'm getting more annoyed than ever
still, the fault is mine
and i just dunno what to do about it
i do not want to explain everything from a-z to EACH person who asks
no way, i had enough of that
i guess i'll just do what i can at the moment

i'm not trying to be emo, man. woman. boy. girl. kid. grar
this is just the way i am
i can be funny if i want, but i chose not to
because i'm mean

after 19 years of mistakes, i've decided that i want to be somebody
somebody who can make a difference
somebody who can confuse the heck out of you! kidding.
how about...somebody who can provoke your mind..with words not my own but from God
hmmm...why
because life is SO MUCH MORE than that
more than just "living life to the fullest"
more than just calling ourselves Christians when some of us lives just like the ppl outside the church
more than just living for ourselves.....well, you know what i'm talking about and prolly you know better than me so i'll leave it at that

to the ppl who call themselves Christians, it is written in the good book that we do not make any vows to God if we're not gonna walk the talk
i have made a lot of promises to God and not fulfill it....i still feel bad but i bet God felt worse
nevertheless, His love never fails to encourage me
i have failed myself so terribly that there were times when i wasnt looking forward to life anymore
devastated, but i'm lifted up again by these beautiful hands that i'm not worthy to hold