i'm falling again

are you contented?
if you are, how contented are you?
just how contented can one human be?

i want to be more than just fine
more than OK

how long will i stop lying to myself?
how long will i stop running away from problems?
enough is enough
i know it'll be harder for me if i keep going on like this
i kept saying, "i trust Him. i will wait on Him."
but i always end up being a hypocrite
and i wonder.....have You given up on me yet?
will i make it through?
will the Savior keep me above the surface?

Thinking that it all just might fade away
I'm terrified to fall 'cause I stepped out today
Sinking 'cause I know, I know I think too much
Save me, Jesus save me