I was pretty much sad when I realised/found out that my friends are leaving KK soon. This is saddening. Some I have just known them not long ago and then they have to go already.
I know everyone has different goals to achieve in their lives. It is not like I cannot accept the truth but .....somehow I just feel down everytime I think of it. And yeah, I might also leave KK some time in the future.
Yer.....
Man, I am going to miss you guys. LOTS and LOTS.
No one is going to take You away from me!
The world will NEVER take You away from me!
What The World Will Never Take
Joke of the Day.
Daniel says, "You know, Venetia is like a rare butterfly!"
Jude says, "Ey Daniel, there's a chicken crossing the road. That's it. Lepas tu dia pulang lah."
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Hahaha. Okay. That was really lame. Venetia and I were chatting about Daniel and Jude having different weirdnesses.
Totally.
So we were trying to predict something. Like, if they are to talk to each other, their conversation will sound like the above. Mwahahaha.
Pot's Blessing (or was it?)
Last night I went to Jessica (Wong)'s house. Lots and lots of people I saw when I walked in. Most of them are from China while the rest are from SIB. I was supposed to talk to the China people and be friends with them but I ended up talking to Daniel (Yapp) instead. It was like, I talked to him only the whole night.
Well, there was Jude. He knew the dinner was going to start at 6.30pm and yet he came at 7.30pm. Hah. And with a snow cap on. Okay, that was random. Hehe.
Daniel looks like a Japanese actually. He has very fair skin which is as white as snow. Haha. And while Daniel and I were in the middle of a conversation, someone came over and asked in a soft voice of hers.
"Ni men yao sui jiao ma?"
Silence.
I looked at Daniel.
Then all of a sudden, "AH!!! OH, it's you Daniel! Sorry I thought you guys were people from China!" (laughed herself and walked off)
I turned to Daniel and said, "Now that's NEW!"
The next thing happened was, we realised that we see Venetia EVERYWHERE. No matter where we turn, Venetia is there. Freaky, huh. I also noticed that everytime Venetia passed by in front of us, she had something new in her hands. As in, different food. Then Daniel tried to make jokes saying, "Since we see her everywhere, we might see her on the ceiling too. Crawling like a lizard, maybe." and "Venetia is like a rare butterfly. You can spot her very easily just by a look at the butterflies. But somehow you just don't wanna catch her." Haha. Wth.
I never stopped to discover things about Powerhouse members.
Abaden. I am still quite new what.
Anyways, Daniel is quite weird and funny when he laughs at his own jokes and leave me stunned for awhile cause I just do not get it! Something like Jude. He questioned and answered himself and hit me for no apparent reasons.
I was abit awkward then. Jude was sitting on my left side and Daniel on my right side. Suddenly both of them talked to me at the same time. So I looked left and right. I smiled and got up to take my stuff. I was relieved when both went somewhere else. Period.
Then Daniel came back and talked to me again. About church, bible, Jesus and the Father. Well he said something about serving the Lord willingly. He sings on stage during Sunday services. Basically that is how he serves the Lord in a way. He also plays piano and composes his own songs. He told me that he has a desire of making an album sometime in the future. Then he said this.
"If you have a desire for God or in the name of Jesus Christ, He will fulfill it."
True.
But weird how the conversation turned. He suddenly talked about how Jesus died on the cross. Like, in details. The nails on the wrists and stuffs. Gross. However I would like to share abit with you all.
Jesus is the Son of God. He lived and purposely died for us because of God's will. He obeyed His Father without asking for anything in return. He did not sin AT ALL and YET He suffered for us on the cross without saying a word to defend himself when He could have! Do you know how much He suffered? Three friggin' hours nailed on the cross before He actually died. Eventually He turned blue due to lack of oxygen and passed out alot of times. During the time, the Romans liked to punish people or simply watch people die by doing anything they could think of. Hanging on the cross is the worst punishment ever. There were three persons had the same punishment and Jesus was in the middle. Sinless. No one dared to speak. The Romans could have punctured their lungs with the spears so they could die quickly.
I just want to cry typing all these. Jesus loves us THAT much.
He died on Sabbath day. Dark clouds were surrounding the whole city. God strucked the altar into two. He prepared a way for us and that is through the Only Son, Jesus Christ. People no longer need to pray at the altar. We can only believe. We also can now call God, our Father.
Salvation is here! WOOHOOOOO!
A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
I went to prayer meeting last night. I was uhm... a bit awkward. I can see people crying while praying for like... 2 hours straight. It was like, yeah, they were spiritually touched I guess but my neck hurt. =(
Before prayer meeting I was at Venetia's house. I slept and ate in her house. Haha.
And before that I went out with Christine, Joanne, Joey, and Venetia. So what we did was... had lunch (which I ordered chocolate ice cream and fries since I already ate in wisma with Jude), walked around in center (then Venetia and I saw this "Vacancy" sign outside a cafe, and we walked in for interview straightaway), then we headed home.
Probably this saturday I am going with CONNECT to meet the students from China. Church is having a mission trip to China actually. And students there are coming to KK. Wow. Hehe.
OK, Jude is annoying me. And it is 2:48 AM now. I..... Need..... To..... Sleep.
Living Sacrifices
"...Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. If it is serving, let him serve; If it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully." (Romans 12:4 - 8)
Jude has done something better...
yay! haha... Jude did this except for the words and the yay!'s around it.Uh yeah.
I was selfish. I was stubborn. I was rebellious towards parents (In some ways, I think). I was naive. I was vain.
I should have seen it coming. God has definately sent me a warning about things that I was going to do but I ignored. In the end, I was the one who got hurt.
Thank God He did not leave me nor forsake me.
Eventually I seek God to get back on track. He has blessed me in alot of ways that I could never thank enough.
Come and make my heart your home,
Come and be everything and Lord I know,
Search me through and through,
Till my heart becomes a home for you.
Dear mom,
I have never had a proper talk with you, seems like it? I do have alot to say to you but I just do not know where to start. So uhm... here it is. I doubt you are going to read this. Ah well.
First of all, I am truly sorry for my wrong-doings for the past 17 years. I know that I have been rude to you in some ways that I myself sometimes may not realise it. Somehow I would talk back and show my temper when you scold me for coming home late at night or probably after I went out the whole day without calling home. I know you are always worrying about me. I am really sorry about the misunderstandings that happened way too much til I could not gain your trust back. But I will someday and prove to you that I am not always doing useless stuffs. I do learn. Everyday.
I have something to tell you. I have found a purpose in my life! And that is God! God has been awesomely awesome to me cause I am blessed everyday. But most of all, I AM LOVED! I want to love Him too, mom. I want to be like Jesus. I want to be a better person. (but I failed to show -- always the wrong way) Anyway, I still love you. I still love you and daddy. Because through him all things were made -- me, you, daddy and all the people on the earth; without him nothing was made that has been made. God created us. He first loved us. But we turned away from Him and He hid Himself from us. Then God sent Jesus to die for us on the cross to cleanse us from our sins. We rebelled against Him and yet He still loves us! Through Jesus Christ we now can have a close relationship with God once again! But not only that, we also will have eternal life if we believe in Him.
"I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life." (John 5:24)
How great is that huh... I remember you talked about Jesus died for us on the cross when brother asked on Easter Day. You know that since long ago but why are you not taking it seriously? HE DIED FOR US! For goodness sake. Do you not believe? It is a matter of life and death. He died and rose again. He will come again on judgement day. That is when people on this earth will be separated -- either to heaven or to hell. Do you not fear God?
No, I am not trying to and will not force you to be a christian. But I am just trying to get this truth into your head. I seriously hope and pray everyday that you will accept Jesus Christ in your heart one day. Same goes to daddy and sisters and brother. Because God told me that if one person in the family is saved, each person in the family are saved. I am waiting for the day comes which we will serve and worship the Lord together. In one family and not just me going to church alone.
I must admit that I do not know God that well.....yet. I am still learning and understanding the Word of God every single day of my life. Perhaps you might think that I am talking bullshits or whatever cause I have other intentions but NO! I have experienced God before. He comforts me whenever I am sad and lost. Most importantly He changed my life. I used to be in darkness with no one to trust. I used to hate. But God taught me how to love. Because you know what? God is Love! I have felt the warmness of His touch. It is always so overwhelming. I did not say this just to convince you to be a christian but whatever that happened to me is real.
However, everything I have said before does not mean I am perfect. I am never perfect. And yet God still loves me for He knows who I am and He understands me in every way.
Same goes to everyone. Christians are not perfect. They are all in the process of growing up in the kingdom of God. Which including my friends too. Talking about friends, you seem to be having a huge misunderstanding that my friends are bad. Frankly I think my friends are awesome. It does not prove anything whether I go out with them the whole day or til late at night if you do not know them AT ALL. I know you are right in some ways that I should not be going out that long whatsoever but what can I do just by sitting at home everyday? What can I get anyway? Seriously you would not want to watch me grow in this house til I get old and all I earn is dust. I am just any other teen who is still learning. And we do not learn in school only. I do not think I will regret cause I have known and seen this world and it cannot be trusted. No where on earth is safe. God has said, "It is better to have trust in me than to put confidence in men." I have also known that in whatever I do, something will always come my way and ruin my plans. I was hurt. But I feel safe when I think of Him. I feel safe in His presence. I was weak, mom. Very. But God has made the difference. He is always there for me when I think I have no one to turn to. He knows me well. He knows just what I need or want.
Found love beyond all reason
You gave Your life Your all for me
And called me Yours forever
Caught in the mercy fallout
I found hope found life
Found all I need
You're all I need
The time has come
To stand for all we believe in
So I for one am gonna
Give my praise to You
Today today it's all or nothing
All they way
The praise goes out to You
Yeah all the praise goes out to You
Today today I live for one thing
To give You praise
In everything I do
Yeah all the praise goes out to You
All we are is Yours
And all we're living for
Is all You are
Is all that You are Lord
I really hope that you will understand my situation now. I need support from you and others.
~I love being beautiful in the eyes of the Lord~