I WISH.
of boredom (for the sake of updating)
*gasps* i heard you're coming back to kk soon! when is it?!
haih... dunno le... you just wait le......
wait a minute... why are you beside me?
mehehehehhe...kena tipu!
WARNING : emo post
i am truly deeply hurt by someone.
and i'll never forget the words that are already been said.
cos i cant.
i doubt i'll ever forgive... but i WILL
but for now, i just cant smile anymore.
cos the words are stucked in my head and my heart hurts so bad.
i really dunno what i want anymore...i'm torn i'm broken
dilemmas
i'm getting really confused and my heart now is getting heavier than before...
i know this is what i want...but Father, is this what You want?
i'm willing to change...no, not for ANYONE in this world...i'm doing this for God
for i live to please God, not men...enough said
The Answer : Love is Unconditional
thay said, "we always misused the word Love"
they said, "we'll never understand each other"
they said, "Love is blind"
they said, "it was love at first sight"
they said, "he/she is not good enough"
they said, "if God is Love, why are there diseases, wars, and ppl suffering in this world?"
I say, they dunno what they're talking about!!!
Better left unsaid
Do you think you really know God?
Do you think twice before you say you love Jesus?
If you do love Him, are you living your life that shows your love to Him?
When He blesses you, do you share the blessings to others as well?
Do you (try to) love your enemies when Jesus told us to?
Have you ever made a vow to God and not fulfill it?
There are so many questions running through my head...
Some I can answer, some I can't even explain...
And I blame myself...
I want to live a child in awe of You
It's hard...
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Blinded by Simplicity
"God is so much more complex than our minds can ever comprehend"
Watch this and think.
(Clicky!)
We can never understand God's creation.
Dust and Ashes
Don't just focus on what is going to happen, but focus on what the Lord is going to do instead.
emotional distress?
the hurt that i once felt back then, always have to come back.
the worst part is.....it comes back very often.
i'm haunted by the past.
yeah, everyone has their own struggles in life... but i pray that ya'll will stay strong and stand firm in Him. i know, easier said than done. but you must do it or else you'll be conquered. like me.
stay close, ppl, stay close.
coming soon...
i had a weird dream...
i was sleeping in my dream...then i knew i was awake but i couldnt move my body, cant really open my eyes...i struggled for a while but lastly i gave up and prayed....then i can move la...woke up and saw some ppl i dunno....i don even know where was i....i saw them trying to save themselves from the erm....bomb? yes the bomb was in the building....everyone was outside waiting for the others inside who were trying to like........em...stop the bomb from exploding...but SOMEHOW something told me that the bomb is going to explode much earlier than they expected... and what happened in the end i dunno cos after that i woke up (this time its real)...
i keep thinking about the dream...then i understand that it happens in real life as well.......(its not like theres a bomb in kk....but who knows right) ppl are always trying to predict when exactly is the end of the world....when disasters are going to happen....when Jesus is going to come... yeah... i don think we'll ever know... til it happens, of cos... and i'm sure all the disasters, troubles, and all the bad things are gonna happen before we expect it to happen...
so take your helmet, breastplate, belt, shield, sword, shoes...and get prepared for the battle! muahahhahahaha
not easy...
today i learned......
human 'beings' and human 'doings'
to BE and to DO
ABADEN.
i also dunno what i'm trying to say...
love, baby, love...
i need water......doesnt mean i'm thirsty? ha?
i'm QUITE happy...
well, i CAN be happier...not that i don wan to but...its hard when i see ppl............erm...i dunno how to describe it....... maybe compassion is the word....its like.... its as if i'm using God's eyes to see these ppl.....and somehow, just somehow, i know how God feels toward them..... its kinda sad.... but........ i really need that hunger..... it hurts when i see them pass by........and no one talks to them....or them being ignored....i dunno how to reach out cos i cant really relate to them.......maybe i need more of that desire in my heart............. so your prayers are much appreciated.... thanks
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couldnt help but feel annoyed yet helpless everytime my parents merajuk at each other. yeesh.