i think it's amazing how God works in our lives
in so many ways, but with one purpose
as i quiet down myself before God, i never failed to ask..
"why do you still love me so much?"
after all i've done
after all i've went through
to the point where i almost gave up loving
overwhelmed by excessive grief
and thank God i realised...
He is so much more than we can ever comprehend
"..Surely I spoke of things I did not understand,
things too wonderful for me to know." - Job 42:3
you see. i really like the book of Job. [and Jonah...Proverbs...Corinthians...Psalm...AHH STOP IT!]
sufferings. perseverance. endurance. patience.
and he never blamed God for what happened
although i never blamed God, but i questioned alot and without my knowledge, i tend to doubt and self-pity [which leads to depression]
God sent me ppl that i dont want to love
God sent me trials to test my faith
God quiets Himself, yet still watching over me
God calls me friend...
the more i ponder about everything He is and what He's done,
the more i feel small...
He has his own way of answering prayers but sometimes we just failed to notice
oh...i remember i read somewhere there was a prophecy for China before the earthquake actually happened
only 2 words.
"Shake, shake!"
when i read that i was like this O.O
i believe God is moving.....
the disasters...God's will but with a purpose
it's like open doors for us to reach out and for them to rise up
wow.
i am a friend of God...this is quite random
have you read today's Our Daily Bread?
"be still, and know that I am God." - Psalm 46:10
this verse refreshes me everytime i read it. AWESOME.
God speaks to those who are quiet before Him.
back from church camp.
blessed.
relieved.
relaxed.
surprised. [cos suddenly i have to buy lunch for amanda]
passion camp this friday.
19Though I am free and belong to no man, I make myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. 20To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. 21To those not having the law I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God's law but am under Christ's law), so as to win those not having the law. 22To the weak I became weak, to win the weak. I have become all things to all men so that by all possible means I might save some. 23I do all this for the sake of the gospel, that I may share in its blessings. - 1 Corinthians 9:19-23
thanks bobby for sharing this verses some time ago
i hope this will humble the ppl with too much pride
like me. and it did.
tagged by andrea and jazzzzz
Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. witness a miracle
2. eat
3. draw
4. at least save one for Jesus
5. be a servant for all
6. read the whole bible
7. preach
Seven things you can do:
1. i can lick my elbow
2. i can laugh with..........no sound [everyone says WHOAAAAA]
3. i can draw
4. i can laugh about something and forget what i laughed about the next minute
5. drool
6. make aaronheng goes "..."
7. make bobby wave like a cat [everyone says WHOOOAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!]
Seven most repeated phrases or words:
1. oh..
2. what the..
3. what in the world..
4. WOW!
5. aaronhengkongthai
6. yes
7. no
Three names you go by:
1. danielle
2. tze
3. soong
Three things you like about yourself:
1. my...hair
2. height
3. eyes
Three things you don't like about yourself:
1. dry skin
2. i like to bug aaronheng
3. i like to kacau natalia....and also bobby
Three things that scares me:
1. cockroaches. bugger.
2. God
3. being in the dark
Three drinks I like:
1. java chip. suka betul.
2. chocolate milk
3. mango
Three of your daily essentials:
1. bible and God
2. food and drinks
3. computer + internet
Three things that you are wearing now:
1. tshirt
2. pants
3. glasses
Three of my current favourite movies:
1. NARNIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. though none go with me
3. a walk to remember
Two truths and a lie:
1. aaron is a boy
2. amanda is a girl
3. i dont think its good to lie
Three things about the opposite sex that appeals you:
1. sense of humor
2. smile
3. er...the way he carries himself.
Three careers that you are considering, or have considered:
1. be a pig
2. a servant for all
3. food taster
Three people you would like to tag:
1. bobby [i know you wont do this but...]
2. theresa
3. bryan limus [its so impossible but...]
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sorry jazz...i did the tag before...so i'm not gonna do it again..haha
So rise up, my friend
I wrote this yesterday:
Feeling amazed, yet burdened at the same time.
I went for Eklektos service on saturday night and i had a really great time. First, Janice and Vector performed a song called Rise Up. The lyrics spoke to me. It's so nice and inspiring! Then the speaker of the night and also a musician and missionary (= musicianary), Rob Berg, sang a few songs of his own. [oh yeah, i like him] He ended with a song and words of love and encouragement. When he was singing, i was drowned into the song and can't help but gazed upon His beauty. It was a beautiful moment. During the ministry time, i was in deep thought. Suddenly i felt like a hypocrite again. I never seemed to have a consistent devotion. I can't seem to have a consistent walk with God. It was awful cause i know it's my fault and i'm the one who's falling away from Him. So ya, i'm glad i shared with aaronhengkongthai. We even prayed for each other! Its funny and weird cause both of us hardly share about our spiritual lives to one another. But at the same time its GOOD to have someone you're accountable to and trust. [everyone nod your head] ok, move on...
i managed to share abit of Aunt Janny's testimony to my parents. What was i thinking...i never shared any testimonies to them before! It was like a first step to reach out to them... yay!
today early morning i read Our Journey about restoration. It says We need to be refreshed and restored every single day that we may not be weary and such. As i read through the whole thing, i felt like something hit me. Before that i always feel exhausted and exasperated i just want to lie down and sleep all the way but after reading that, i realised i've forgotten how to renew my strength and have my soul restored when its so easy. Just set aside time to be in God's presence is all i need. I turned to Psalm 63 and realised that i marked that whole chapter so i read everything and found my own handwriting at the bottom of the page. "True satisfaction comes from Him alone!" I was.....like.......so encouraged.
Suddenly after that i felt...discouraged...em...something brought me down again lah. And i thought i might as well just go out with my sis and forget about everything. So i went out.....met the Wong family. A college friend whom i havent met for a long time texted me all of a sudden. Then "accidentally" met Daniel David Elaine and Yvonne while having early dinner. Oh ya! i met my ex classmate too! Then was on the way to growball to watch movie Narnia 2, met Matthew. Then FINALLY in the cinema.....saw 3 too-familiar-ppl. Elsha, Charlotte and Jessica. Woah, what a day!
Ohhhhhyessssss i need to talk about Narnia!!!! The movie never failed to amaze me! I watched part 1 so at least i understand the part 2 lah. So nice loh. See, sampai the sabahan slang all keluar. This movie brings out a message which is very familiar to many of us Christians but it's thought-provoking too. There was this scene when the lion, Aslan, asked the little princess "Why didnt you come to me?" (something like that) then she answered, "I was afraid of coming alone" Immediately i felt like God was having that conversation with me. It was so real. Ahhhhh....... fear has taken control of me i guess... God spoke to me through many situations that i'll never forget.
It's time to rise up.
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Today...
i want to tell you that...
if you pray for a heart of compassion...
God will give you opportunities to love and appreciate others more
He will give you that extra sensitivity towards ppl around you
He will open up your heart to see ppl like how He sees them
Ask and you will receive...but you must also believe when you pray...
indescribable moment
sometimes i just feel it more and more real each day
as i read Your Word, the absolute truth, oh wont you show me the light to the path you've prepared for me?
i wish i can stay like this forever
...just being lost in Your presence, in your love.
and still wanting MORE.
O Lord i'm crying out to you from the depths of my heart
can you hear me?
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you know what?
Theresa and i are very successful now after we entered this..........
janice is on the phone beside me and............................
finally can online!!!!!!!!!!!!
in kyrugma now.....weeee~~
its lunch time and i'm hungry.
I'M HUNGRY. ROAR.
ok bye.
i am deeply grieved.
other than that i do not what else to say.
Fritzl incest case (clickable)
another link about the same case (clickable)
what in a world we're living?
wont you pray with me?
flyleaf rocks!
in the previous post, the first portrait of a girl is called Rosa Kato. or Kato Rosa. [can terbalik]
and yes, amanda. she has a gorgeous smile.
apparently she's half-jap half-italian. i think she looks more like a jap.
anywayyyyyyyyyyy
its mothers day today.
i'm still working on a drawing. an important drawing. ahem.
shall not rush this time.....and i hope it'll come out beeaaaauuuuutiful
*random facts of the day*
1. my dad so handsome when he first married to my mom!
2. i'm sho happy =)
3. I'M ALIVE!
Oh Mika!
I used colour pencils on this portrait
It's still quite incomplete actually
Next, I'm gonna draw Hayley Williams ["weeeeeeeeee~~~"
says Daniel Chen]
Oh yeah... Natalia Singa and I were talking so much about Daniel Chen on Sunday, I dunno why.
I guess we miss him THAT much. *gasps*
*UPDATED*
Hayley Williams!!! Weeeeee~~~~ [di bawah tu]
Though none go with me, I will still follow. No turning back. No turning back.
I'm tagged by Pauline, Debbie, and Emmeline.
No Questions.
No Answers.
I'm random and weird. Full stop.
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Now. Updates.
I still love Paramore.
The weather is still hot.
I'm still sweating.
I think I finally got enough rest after staying up for 3am to 8am prayer meeting on Sunday.
I'm still called a pig.
I still haven't found my bible after I left it in sanctuary.
I'm still unsure about something. Decisions in life.
I'm still practicing on changing guitar chords when playing.
Planned to draw another Mika Nakashima portrait.
Still thinking.....
Janice's words still playing in my mind til today.
On Saturday night, Aunt Kitty picked me up and we went to Shalom. Met Catherine and Sherly there. Actually I don't know how their names are spelled. Anyway, I finally got to play the acoustic guitar! The sounds are waaaaay nicer than a classical guitar but after playing it for a while my fingers hurt. Imagine Kitty played for a whole good 5 hours through out the prayer meeting!
We slept in PH room til 2.30am. But I didn't cause I couldn't. I was listening to music on the phone then Ridge texted me asking me where am I. I told him I'm in Shalom and he didn't reply after that. Little did I know he was already on the way to look for me. I remember it was around 11pm when I heard David and Ridge talking to Aunt Sherly at the door. I got up and went out of the room and saw the others like the Chens, Elaine, and Steffi. Aunt Sherly told me to sleep early and went back in. But I guess she was worried, she came out looking for me after a while. She told the others to go home early but they stayed for another 10 minutes before they decided to head home. I went back in the room, still wide awake. I tried to sleep in and managed to get 10 mins of sleep, maybe?
Then it was time for prayer. Washed up and waited for others to arrive. I was doing the song manager as usual. Pastor Lee Lee led the meeting and we just worshipped God and prayed for the church. I'm glad I went cause I had wanted to join all the while. God has put burdens in my heart to just pray and pray and pray. I believe His favor is upon me. [Thanks Tes] And I believe that.....the sacrifices of not sleeping and just praying to God...is all worth it. If ONE prayer can make a difference, it's WORTH IT. Dear God, may this sacrifice be acceptable to You. Please hear us from heaven.
Halfway through the meeting, I was half-awake. I kept yawning til tears welled in my eyes with runny nose. I was sooooo cold. But I just sat there looking at the people in the room, crying out to God for MORE. They were on fire for God. I was like, "...woah...why can't I be like them?"
I went to Aunty Kitty's house after that. She gave me something to read from Pastor Lee Lee. It's about prophecies for Malaysia. Immediately I felt that God wants me to spent more time just praying. Not just me. But you, who are reading this right now. God wants you to pray. Disasters. Tragedies. Crimes. Are you still sleeping? Have you not realised it? The time has come. The Lord is coming. What are you waiting for?
Matthew 24.
VERY random. and very old pics. well, not very.
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I can't explain...I just love you
"...And I’ll hear your voice so loud
When you’re whispering
Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another"
-Some will seek forgiveness, Others escape [UNDEROATH]
and i hear you whisper.....
"I'll always be waiting"
Thank You for Your love,
That I don't deserve,
After all I've done,
Yet You say I'm worth. - Ven