when it rains

i've been listening to paramore alot nowadays
and i'm addicted

Take your time.
Take my time.

Take these chances to turn it around
Take these chances, we'll make it somehow
And take these chances to turn it around
Just turn it around

it has always been me who took the driver's seat while God sitting beside me on the passenger's seat... but today its turning around...cos i'm letting and trusting God to take the wheel

i will follow You~
follow You wherever You may go~


Somewhere weakness is our strength,
And I'll die searching for it
I can't let myself regret such selfishness
My pain and all the trouble caused,
No matter how long
I believe that there's hope
Buried beneath it all and
Hiding beneath it all, and
Growing beneath it all, and...

This is how we'll dance when
When they try to take us down
This is how we'll sing it
This is how we'll stand when
When they burn our houses down
This is what will be, oh glory

- Let the Flames Begin

i looked at the sky and back to the sea, admiring the creation
everything that i see, hear, and feel
i never missed it so much
and i find myself falling in love all over again
He always knows how to make me smile, even when i don't feel like it
He always knows how to make me feel secure, with just one look...just knowing that He's watching over me
God, i never felt...so...peaceful
just being silent with you
just walking as the wind blows......

You took my breath away

Love,
you can't see it, but you can feel it.

i can feel it!!!!

true freedom comes from Him and Him alone!!!!!!
i hope to stay in Your presence forever
FOREVER!!!!!

i never meant to brag but i got what i wanted now!

perseverance. MORE.

"I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted...Surely I spoke things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know...Therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes." - Job 42

there were times when i forgot that God is in control
too many times...
i mean...God doesnt just work in one way right?
there will be tests and trials anytime anywhere
there will be many times when God wants me to learn
whether in self-discipline, patience, kindness...etc
and God may test my faith in any kind of situations
[sometimes i may not be aware of it]
many times i failed the test.
now what, God?

today.....is the day i'm gonna find rest in Him
too many things going on [in my mind]
O Lord, renew my mind, restore my heart, for I'm weary and burdened

i want to scream right now...like a mad woman
i feel like nobody understands what i'm feeling now, except God
i really need rest.
wake me up when september ends?
haih...

time and initiative...
i feel like you're pushing me
at this moment, i just want to be left alone and soak into Your love...
i rather be lost in Your love than being lost in this world and this mind

Namesake

For Your namesake
I'm willing to let go
For Your namesake
I'm giving it all
For Your namesake
I'm dying to myself

i hope my effort is not in vain
i hope you will see my sincerity
i hope you know what went wrong
i hope you don't take me for granted...anymore
i hope to find a way back into love


i hope...

You will take control

I'M SOLD OUT!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

there you go...

You

And I find peace
When I'm confused
I find hope when
I'm let down
Not in me
But in You

I hope to lose myself
For good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me
In You
It's all I know

of decision in life... or commitment?

its as if....... i'm standing at crossroads...
wondering which way to go....
is it just me thinking too much or.......are You trying to tell me something?

Lord is this what YOU want?
please reveal to me...
i'll do whatever you say.....
just say go, and i'll go

"You have seen many things, but have paid no attention; your ears are open, but you hear nothing." Isaiah 42:20

Can you see the loneliness from the eyes?
Can you hear the sadness in the voice?
Can you see the desperation from the eyes?
Can you see or hear the brokenness from within?

You have eyes, but you don't see.
You have ears, but you don't listen.

You failed to notice.

"...yet they did not understand; it consumed them, but they did not take it to heart."


what I've seen and where I've been
what's breaking out and breaking in
who I love and I despise
melting into compromise
how I've changed and how I've learned
becoming less becoming more
and I'm still nothing next to you
I'm still nothing next to you

all the future seems unclear
never moving never near
but You hold me as I scream
wake me from my wicked dream
something out there waits for me
hand in hand we wait for it
but I'm still nothing next to You
I'm still nothing without to You

will You stand right next to me
will You hold me faithfully
should I question all these things
what makes me so deserving
of something that I've thrown away
coming back for me today
when I'm still nothing next to You
I'm still nothing next to You
hearts are broken just to mend
when will my brokenness end
lending my mind to dreams it seems
some things are never meant to be
but faith it lingers as I die
inside surrendering I cry
I'm still nothing next to You
I'm still nothing without You

time is a broken dream
time is an endless change
time is an offering
time has an endless sting
time has a world to bring
time, it's a broken dream
mended while lovers sing

Letting go is beautiful

so i permed my hair last week
mom brought me to a salon and i wasnt supposed to ...do anything to my hair
then the (annoying)hairdresser [oops] suggested that i cut or perm my hair
i was so tired and moody...i just said..."mmmm...whatever"
but didnt know it'll turn out like this [totally unexpected]
some ppl said not nice... some ppl said nice...
but it seems like i focused more on the negative comments [no matter how much i like this hairstyle]
and you know, all these years...in my 19 years of life, i have been like that
being indecisive and always focus on the negative side of things [no matter how right or wrong i am, no matter how ppl try to convince me of something, and even though its over.....i, as a human, tend to dwell in the past]
and sometimes i just blame myself for thinking too much
and maybe....its just because i spent too much time slacking
or maybe... i really think too much

Sinking cause I know, I know I think too much
Save me, please save me...

Jesus please save me

I'm dying to myself. You take control.