tak jadi punya project... but credits to yappzai for the beeeeeautiful design

Apa tu?

living in a world where everyone desperately needs love but yet living in denial

i have no idea what i was thinking..
the blurness
the tiredness
the sleepiness
the hurt
all adding in together...

oh yes... the curiosity.

of what they're actually thinking.....and what is going on...

WHY ARE THINGS SO COMPLICATED!?
well, maybe they're not really THAT complicated... i'm probably just TOO SLOW...
oooohhh yesss

you disappoint me.

Exasperation

well, i guess its coming back again...
when everything seems moving either faster or slower...
when i feel the walls start crumbling down...
when i start to have the feeling of nostalgic...
when i find....peace....when i'm confused...
when i feel like i'm lacking of something...

when i don feel right in everything i do...
thats when i feel pressured.....
most of all, i find myself in desperation...and frustration

the day will come where i will have to let go...

the day will come where i will face judgement...

the day will come where i will see You face to face.....

is this what you call freedom? is this what you call pain?

last night i dreamed of something.......i dunno...its quite scary....

aaron, pls ask me what is it.....and i'll tell you PERSONALLY

Giving thanks

of frustrations

Coming back to life

I guess it's in all those great important matters
We all like to bend around
We do our best to ignore
While our hearts is longing for more
We are not synchronized
We are intellectualized

bugger...

i'm not looking forward to anything... AT ALL.

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except one thing.

just one thing.

and i hope You know...

this black crow becoming white dove

I WISH.

of boredom (for the sake of updating)

*gasps* i heard you're coming back to kk soon! when is it?!

haih... dunno le... you just wait le......

wait a minute... why are you beside me?

mehehehehhe...kena tipu!

i don think i'm ready to face her.....yet

"haih....."

see the differences? see the similarities?

WARNING : emo post

i am truly deeply hurt by someone.
and i'll never forget the words that are already been said.
cos i cant.
i doubt i'll ever forgive... but i WILL
but for now, i just cant smile anymore.
cos the words are stucked in my head and my heart hurts so bad.

i really dunno what i want anymore...i'm torn i'm broken

dilemmas

i'm getting really confused and my heart now is getting heavier than before...

i know this is what i want...but Father, is this what You want?

i'm willing to change...no, not for ANYONE in this world...i'm doing this for God

for i live to please God, not men...enough said

i lost it again

i'm a friggin' loser

LOSER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Answer : Love is Unconditional

thay said, "we always misused the word Love"
they said, "we'll never understand each other"
they said, "Love is blind"
they said, "it was love at first sight"
they said, "he/she is not good enough"
they said, "if God is Love, why are there diseases, wars, and ppl suffering in this world?"



I say, they dunno what they're talking about!!!

"Save yourselves from this corrupt generation"

Better left unsaid

Do you think you really know God?
Do you think twice before you say you love Jesus?
If you do love Him, are you living your life that shows your love to Him?
When He blesses you, do you share the blessings to others as well?
Do you (try to) love your enemies when Jesus told us to?
Have you ever made a vow to God and not fulfill it?

There are so many questions running through my head...
Some I can answer, some I can't even explain...

And I blame myself...

I want to live a child in awe of You

It's hard...

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Question Answers

Thanks to DanielC!

For what?

". . . . ."

Told ya, question answers!

Blinded by Simplicity

"God is so much more complex than our minds can ever comprehend"





Watch this and think.

(Clicky!)



We can never understand God's creation.

Dust and Ashes

Don't just focus on what is going to happen, but focus on what the Lord is going to do instead.

emotional distress?

the hurt that i once felt back then, always have to come back.
the worst part is.....it comes back very often.

i'm haunted by the past.

yeah, everyone has their own struggles in life... but i pray that ya'll will stay strong and stand firm in Him. i know, easier said than done. but you must do it or else you'll be conquered. like me.

stay close, ppl, stay close.

coming soon...

i had a weird dream...

i was sleeping in my dream...then i knew i was awake but i couldnt move my body, cant really open my eyes...i struggled for a while but lastly i gave up and prayed....then i can move la...woke up and saw some ppl i dunno....i don even know where was i....i saw them trying to save themselves from the erm....bomb? yes the bomb was in the building....everyone was outside waiting for the others inside who were trying to like........em...stop the bomb from exploding...but SOMEHOW something told me that the bomb is going to explode much earlier than they expected... and what happened in the end i dunno cos after that i woke up (this time its real)...

i keep thinking about the dream...then i understand that it happens in real life as well.......(its not like theres a bomb in kk....but who knows right) ppl are always trying to predict when exactly is the end of the world....when disasters are going to happen....when Jesus is going to come... yeah... i don think we'll ever know... til it happens, of cos... and i'm sure all the disasters, troubles, and all the bad things are gonna happen before we expect it to happen...

so take your helmet, breastplate, belt, shield, sword, shoes...and get prepared for the battle! muahahhahahaha

When everything piles up...

I just wanna stop and rest.

Listen.

not easy...

today i learned......

human 'beings' and human 'doings'

to BE and to DO

ABADEN.

i also dunno what i'm trying to say...

love, baby, love...

i need water......doesnt mean i'm thirsty? ha?

i'm QUITE happy...

well, i CAN be happier...not that i don wan to but...its hard when i see ppl............erm...i dunno how to describe it....... maybe compassion is the word....its like.... its as if i'm using God's eyes to see these ppl.....and somehow, just somehow, i know how God feels toward them..... its kinda sad.... but........ i really need that hunger..... it hurts when i see them pass by........and no one talks to them....or them being ignored....i dunno how to reach out cos i cant really relate to them.......maybe i need more of that desire in my heart............. so your prayers are much appreciated.... thanks


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couldnt help but feel annoyed yet helpless everytime my parents merajuk at each other. yeesh.

Love, ppl (no not baby), LOVE!

I called

You answered

And You came to my rescue

And I

Wanna be where You are

Random pic (and one to be remembered) : the day Christine found out (gosh, finally!) that I have dimples. Yay!

200th! Love, baby, love!

yay.....

stress......

yes....

the stress-ness.....

whoever you are, give me back my pail! its my mom's!!!!!

last car wash also someone took my lousy cloth.....

ish...ish...ish...

HOW DO I EXPLAIN TO MY MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


love, baby, love
this is my
theme from summer
winter spring and fall
love, baby, love
in july
august or december
anytime at all

There is none like Him

and there will never be...

Give me an S!

give me a T!
give me an R! rarrrr...
now give me an E!
give me an S!
give me another S!


Where is our Secret Place?

"why you laugh oh?"

wo gen ni jiang hua de oh...






koko crunch!

"ya lah tu"

happy birthday to.......ME! wait...YOU!
sorry i don have a new pic of you...
and this is so lame...
because its suppose to be lame...
but...it turns out to be.....gay
whats wrong with you?

i want to be blameless and pure

had a conversation with my bro (in Christ) yesterday

after that convo it really open up my eyes
and i began to feel disappointed
the more he shared whats in his heart...the more i feel it
nothing i can do now
nothing.
just pray.

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do you even bother to know what i'm feeling?
you wan to know?

i feel like a piece of crap now.

the tears...

yay...
yay?
yay!

ha?

"the world goes around the moon 3 times, the world goes around the moon 3 times,
lalalalalalalalalala.....~~"

sweethearts
shoe lace
slippers
waterpiping!
sit big land!???

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

i think i've become even more crazy with AARON and CHILLI around....
tu la...your fault! ha?

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ LOL! (christine style)

not just another emo post

my life will never be the same without you...and you...and you...and you ppl

LOVE YOU!

Confusion?

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emo me?

SPOT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
or me emo?
emo is me, me is emo. so am i emo? or emo am i?

hi gabby.
this probably is the LONGEST post you've ever read......
although its only the same FEW words...but it speaks a thousand words if....you really understand...you....geddit?
yeah....there you go, gabby...

oh hi aaron...

burung hantu! WOOF!

one lil two lil three lil fingers

four lil five lil six lil fingers

seven lil eight lil nine lil fingers

ten lil fingers for an owl!

*growls*

I love you

but i'm crying inside...



So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

Show me Your heart
Show me Your way
Show me Your glory


i don't understand, Father... i really don't understand...
You know our hearts..... but why? WHY why?

it's very disturbing...very upsetting...
but let Your will be done O Lord...

This is our love
Hearts joined as one
Desperate for all You are
Lord break down these walls
and see how we love
Desperate for all You are
We chase Your heart

Please hear our prayers......

Something.

it's clickable


I fell into the same hole again. I'm sorry.
But I still have a hope at least.
A hope that never fails me, no matter how many times I've failed Him over and over and over again and AGAIN and AGAIN. I must have been the worst hypocrite ever.

"You'll never let me go, through it all" -- Now WHO can beat that huh!?


I'm staring out into the night
Trying to hide the pain
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain

I'm going home
Back to the place where I belong
And where your love has always been enough for me
I'm not running from
No, I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret this life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home
Well I'm going home

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you
I've not always been the best man or friend for you
But your love, remains true
And I don't know why
You always seem to give me another try

There are so many songs in my mind right now but I decided to post 3 song lyrics for this post.

Well...here's the last one:

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Almighty one
There is none like You

Familiar? Think you heard the songS before?

Activity no.1
Find out the song titles and the artists!
Pass up by tomorrow.

Motivated

I'm in awe of You...

Now I ask that You fill me again

And let this fire stay the same

Today, tomorrow, and days to come

Here I am

Let Your love fall down again
This time I won't hide

Please come...
This is my cry...
I'm not capable of standing on my own

No one understands like You do





















Credits to yappzai

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

to Michelle & Christine Majimbun & Didi Wong (2nd), Ah Boy & Ridge Morrison (4th), Melanie Koh (11th), Daniel Tan (13th), Jude (20th), Kwan Chi (21th), Raphael (24th), and Dana Chinn (27th)!

Ahhhh........probably there's more but that's all I know.. Happy birthday in advance!

Luv Addict

I couldnt put it down. Couldnt lift it up either.

. . . So I just surrender. But that doesn't mean I'm giving up on my only hope. Never.

=(

So?

I want to be your best friend.

GOD'S IDEAL

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone

to have a deep soul relationship with another

to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But God, says,

“No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone,

with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to me,

with having an intensely personal relationship with me alone,

discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,

will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.

You will never be able to unite with another until you are united with Me,

exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,

and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing,

one that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the very best.

Please allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest thing,

keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM,

keep listening and learning the things I tell you,

you just wait, that’s all.

Don’t worry. Don’t be anxious.

Don’t look around at the things others have gotten or that I’ve given them.

Don’t look at the things you think you want.

You just keep looking at Me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you’re ready,

I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would dream of.

You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready,

(I am working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time)

until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me,

and the life I prepared for you,

you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me,

and thus the perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love.

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with me,

and to enjoy materially and concretely,

the everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love.

Know that I love you utterly.

I am God.

Believe it and be satisfied.”

You

i know deep inside.....i'm desperate for more



there's nothing more i can say...
just...thank you

SIGH

what do i look for in a guy?

1. who thinks spongebob is cool
2. who is good with kids (HAHA)
3. intro extrovert

these are the few ones taken from the list
which i think is funny...nvm
muahahahaha

cant you be more gentle?
but since i learned that we're both imperfections, let it be.
haih...

i really do!

oh yes i do...

ah, the freedom.

"...and grace amazing takes me home,
I trust in You"

Thanks, I feel lighter now.

But the assignments aren't getting any lighter.....

And so, I'm going to be... dead meat.

I hate colour studies! and that fundamental design thingy!

Please, just let me have sketching classes for the rest of my college life.

speechless

Break my heart for what breaks Yours.

He knows

He knows your words before you speak or ask for anything.

I'm getting sick of this world.
What are these humans becoming?
I wonder what's inside their little heads
Do they even think?
Oh yes...they do
They only think of how to destroy other ppl's lives
And then what?
Nothing.
Meaningless.

Beeaaautiful!

By Armin Mersmann.

By Brian Duey. Pencil Drawings. I LOVE fine art! Will try to practice myself on this...hahaha

Note to self :

I can't get things I want all the time.

I need patience.

There's still a lifetime for me to learn.

Do not worry about future.

Just put complete trust and hope in Him.

Surrender to Him.

Let His will be done.

Things are gonna be hard, just hang on.

Have faith and stay close to Him.

Every moment is an opportunity to learn.

He's ALWAYS there.

Bible...is actually fun to read.

May your love fall on this place,

Cause I'm desperate.

I used to be darkness
Without you I
I lived my life in blindness
But now I am found

And I'll sing, sing I love you so
And I'll sing
Because the world can't take away
Your love

You found me in weakness
Broken
You came to me in kindness
And now I live

I'll give my life for you Lord
For all you've done

I finally understand what you said, when I realised the distance.
Depressed I may be, but I'll stand stronger.
We'll have better days next time.
Maybe we'll appreciate more.

For now, just let me forget.
Forget what is happening and move forward.
Because I'm tired of looking back and wondering why.

I couldn't focus and Lord, now I pray that You'll help me to.
Help me get through this.
That's all I'm asking.

Listen and Obey

"Go."

I didn't move.

"Just go."

Still I didn't move.

If only I took that step, I wouldn't have to blame myself. I wouldn't end up feeling so lousy. I could've made a difference. Could have 'escaped'. Could have been happier.

Don't. Let. Go.

A big bowl of tom yam for now would be really(really) nice...

*hint hint*

roti canai!!!!!

har mien!!!!

mango!!!!!

yes...i'm starting to eat MORE than usual if you noticed...hee

stress!!

Mengejar Hadirmu

You say: "It's impossible"

God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)

You say: "I'm too tired"

God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me"

God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34)

You say: "I can't go on"

God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: "I can't figure things out"

God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)

You say: "I can't do it"

God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)

You say: "I'm not able"

God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: "It's not worth it"

God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28)

You say: "I can't forgive myself"

God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: "I can't manage"

God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)

You say: "I'm afraid"

God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"

God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)

You say: "I don't have enough faith"

God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith (Romans 12:3)

You say: "I'm not smart enough"

God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: "I feel all alone"

God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

daniel, i 'grabbed' your pics from your blog. thank you very much

Pencil marks on a wall, I wasn't always this tall
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed
You watched my team win
You watched my team lose
Watched when my bicycle went down again
And when I was weak, unable to speak
Still I could call You by name
And I said, Elbow Healer, Superhero
Come if You can
You said, I Am

Only sixteen, life is so mean
What kind of curfew is at 10pm?
You saw my mistakes
And watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I'd never love again
And when I was weak, unable to speak
Still I could call You by name
And I said Heartache Healer, Secret Keeper
Be my best friend
And you said, I Am

You saw me wear white by pale candlelight
I said forever to what lies ahead
Two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
Too much it might seem when it is 2am
And when I am weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Shepherd, Savior, Pasture Maker
Hold onto my hand
You say, I Am

The winds of change and circumstance blow in and all around us
So we find a foothold that's familiar
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer

When life had begun, I was woven and spun
You let the angels dance around the throne
And who can say when, but they'll dance again
When I am free and finally headed home
I will be weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Creator, Maker, Life Sustainer
Comforter, Healer, my Redeemer
Lord and King, Beginning and the End

I Am
Yes, I Am

- Nichole Nordeman's "I am"

To influence or be influenced

"Satan uses whatever he can to influence us away from God."

Because.

"Man stood in the place of intimacy that he had lost."

"The devil is all about influence. His desires is to have us take our eyes off God and put them on ourselves.....Our enemy encourages and influences us to move into this same self-willed way. We are more concerned about "I will" than about God's will. So we spend our lives, inside and outside the church, getting what we will."

".....If they can, Satan's host will divert us from giving glory to God and cause us to believe that we are not as close to Him as we think we are."

"Satan lost his place and wants us to lose ours as well"

But.

"Those who have accepted God's grace cannot be separated from Him."

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written: "For Your sake we are killed all day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter." Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. - Romans 8:35-39

faking happiness

so...like...what?

OI SAYUR! - venetia taught me [today]

and... i had the best tom yam but the worst prawns i have ever eaten! AH!

i'm sleepy... reeeaaaaaaally sleepy
but ONE word.

Assignments. yes i'm lovin it! like, really! even though i get to sleep very little everyday...i mean...i enjoy what....i think...oh now i'm sick...great.....i mean...i don like flu...and sore throat...and the coldness...ah yes the coldness.....leave me alone.....oh ya...bye venetia! you're leaving in 14 hours from now....why do you have to leave so soon....like, what the love...blame your col? heh...ah....i havent even started on assignments yet...btw... 1 John 2:13 - my fav...if i'm not mistaken la......cos i'm so tired...my.....brain....still.....functioning bah...ish

time will change my heart?
how long does it takes?
just how long will i have to wait?
why...when...HOW?
deep inside my heart i know i don wan to and you know it...
but it's not our will

maybe i should stop thinking and start to let go

Golden

She's alone tonight with a bitter cup and
She's undone tonight, she's all used up
She's been staring down the demons
Who've been screaming
She's just another so and so
Another so and so

You are golden
You are golden, Child
You are golden
(Don't let go)
(Don't let go tonight)

There's a fear that burns like trash inside
And your shame of the curse that burns your eyes
You've been hiding in your bedroom
Hoping this isn't how the story has to go
It's not the way it goes
It's your book now

You are golden
You are golden, Child
You are golden
(Don't let go)
(Don't let go tonight)

You're a lonely soul in a land of broken hearts
You're far from home, it's a perfect place to start

(Yeah!)
(Burn)
(Burn, Burn!)

So this final verse is a contradiction
And the more we learn the less we know
We've been talkin' about a feeling
We both know inside but couldn't find the words
I couldn't write this verse
I've seldom been so sure
About anything before

Golden
You are Golden, Child
You are Golden
(Don't let go)
(Don't let go tonight)

This world is a dead man down (Golden, you are)
Every breath is a fading crown we wear (Golden, Child, you are)
Like some debilitated king (Golden, don't let go)
Don't let go tonight

The Earth spins and the moon goes round (Golden, you are)
The green comes from the frozen ground (Golden, Child, you are)
And everything will be made new again (Golden)
(Like freedom in spring) (Golden, Golden)

Hey, like freedom in spring, (Golden, you are, hey)
Like freedom in spring (Golden, Child, you are)(Gold...)

REEAAALLY random pics.

Sorry you're not a god

Is this the New Year or just another night?

Is this the new fear or just another fright?

Is this the new tear or just another desperation?

I'm losing my temper.

WHAT THE LOVE!

It'll be a day like this one

When the world caves in. . . . .

There's nothing here worth saving,

Is no one here at all?

Is there any net left that could break our fall?

It'll be a day like this one

When the sky falls down and the hungry and poor and deserted are found

Are you discontented? Have you been pushing hard?

Have you been throwing down this broken house of cards?

Is there nothing left now?

Nothing left to sing

Are there any left who hasn't kiss the enemy?

Is this the New Year or just another desperation?

Does justice never find you? Do the wicked never lose?

Is there any honest song to sing besides these blues?

And nothing is okay

Till the world caves in. . . . .

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I hope time will change your heart...

When there's not much left to say

Words better left unspoken

Let me hear from you

When your heart is broken

I'll wait for you

This is what I become after I met Jude.

Tired.

HUNGRY.

i'm tired and HUNGRY.

so...am i more to tired or hungry?

HUNGRY!

yay! correct! full marks for me!

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ARE YOU UNDERSTAND!? (yes, ARE you understand?)

None but You

Psalm 125. It's stucked in my head.

I feel like I'm back in high school.

And it's hard to stay in such place especially when you have conflicts with some ppl.

Just a couple actually. Yet it's still hard.

Things can just go wrong in a second.

But I'm not gonna let it break me down.

MUAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHA!

........And I'll try to love even though it's hard. I'm feeling very sentimental to day.

1117

I went to his house.
And I finally understand the situation a little bit more.
But still I understand. It's for the better, I know.

He had a conflict with the management.
Had always been thinking of resigning.
Had always been thinking.....

...And he made his decision with a heavy heart.

I'm still sad about it but I have another feeling. I'm really proud of him.
He's such a big influence in my college. A role model.
So many ppl look up to him cause he helped them alot in every way, always helping them to get back on track.

My thoughts changed.
Maybe I shouldn't listen from others anymore about anything. Such as RUMORS.
or GOSSIP. Meaningless. Oh, and ghost stories? MEANINGLESS! (you heard that, Vincent?)

I've been having this feeling..... It came on and off for a few days.
And I have NO IDEA what is it. But... I just feel weird.

I don't care if you don't like the way I blog.
I don't care if you don't think I sound stupid in my posts.

I DON'T CARE, MAN! and woman.

So yeah... it's one of those moments again. AGAIN. and AGAIN.

Somehow I know what you were gonna say.
I wanted to avoid, but I know......I'm still gonna face it sooner or later anyway.
And then it came out, my heart was heavy.
I tried to pull myself together. I know things will be ok.
As long as we put our effort in solving the problem, right?

I received a text from Uncle Francis, saying he resigned FOR GOOD.
I was shocked. Really.
Saddening. Very.
What're we students gonna do without him?
What about the CF that he's been wanting to form for years?
My head was filled with questions.
"If he's leaving, I'm leaving too," my friends said.
At that moment, I felt a bit angry.
Did he choose the right decision at the right time?

If it's so, I need to know WHY.

I do care.

Guess.

As I recall with my stomach turning
I was hiding away from myself, away from you
Like nothing, though something was terribly wrong
And I admit that I was only waiting for the right time
Night time, the right moment for you to look away
Though you never did, I pretended for a while
So I could walk where I dont belong





Sorry, this is where I feel most sane.

Manda.

yeap. this is amanda. she's funny.

and.....

she's really funny.

don't ask why.

talk to her in person then you'll know.

heh.

Ah... anyone please bring me to eat tom yam...!
It's been exactly 100 days (I have no idea!) since I had it...

The sun never dies

I don't want to fall anymore. (I dunno how many friggin times I've said this)
I don't want to go back. Cause I know it hurts if I do so.

And I do not know why it still hurts a bit as I move on now...

Maybe...

...i know somethings gotta change.

Maybe...

.....just maybe...

...I could taste a little more of the freedom. In other words, it's JUST FOR GOODNESS SAKE.


Rar.

Friggin' Streamyx. RAWR!



Blindside - Silence

They won't see the fire you have lit inside of me
They look up to the stars and wonder where you might be
They look up
Without realizing they're standing in the palm of your hand
I can't explain or understand
I just love you

It's common knowledge that; you've been dead for a while
It's well known that the cross is only a burden with pains and trials
But thinking how come my shoes are so light, how come I can walk for miles?
And still, just love you?

So I think I will stay
Caught up in silent prayer
Cause I believe in silence
Our hearts speak the same words
So why don't we just walk along the shoreline with our silent song?
Cause I believe in silence
Our hearts speak the same words

We have to prove that our love is real, over and over again
But let them think what they want cause I know It'll never end
Cause I know when it began
And my heart still pumps twice as fast whenever you walk by
Cause I still love you

So I think I will stay
Caught up in silent prayer
Cause I believe in silence
Our hearts speak the same words
So why don't we just walk along the shoreline with our silent song?
Cause I believe in silence
Our hearts speak the same words



For now, I wish to leave this place. And go to a secret place.

Where there's only silence.
Where we just know our hearts.

This song means so much to me that I could just listen to it the whole day.





And lastly I wanna say to this special friend of mine,
It's been half a year.....and shit happened...SO.............



















I LOVE YOU DEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHA

























Right, this is so random. But wth. I love you too, whoever's reading this.

Flyleaf - All Around Me

My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

Ah. The Boredom.

Someone please come to my house these few days.
Because I'm dying from boredom.

Can't go to college,

Nothing I can do.

RAR.

Since I'm bored,

let me introduce my friends from college.....again

This is Angnes.

Once I asked her why aNgnes?

"Error"

Theresa. From Eklektos.

Vincent. NGEK. He's another lamer.

Bored.

He's 21 btw.

I call him Ah boy. Lurrrrrrrve him.

Ahem.

Candid.

Mr. Petrus. Vincent always say he's cute. Bah.

Mango ice, please?

i'm feeling ok.

despite the works that need to be done as soon as possible,

i can enjoy a lil bit now. being carefree for a while. heh

so everyone going for Unquenched Passion this saturday?

you probably have heard this song

don care la... go listen to it again

and read the lyrics...hehe

Chris Rice - Go Light Your World

There is a candle in every soul

Some brightly burning, some dark and cold

There is a spirit who brings a fire

Ignites a candle and makes his home

So carry your candle, run to the darkness

Seek out the helpless, confused and torn

Hold out your candle for all to see it

Take your candle, and go light your world

Take your candle, and go light your world

Frustrated brother, see how he's tried to

Light his own candle some other way

See now your sister, she's been robbed and lied to

Still holds a candle without a flame

So carry your candle, run to the darkness

Seek out the lonely, the tired and worn

Hold out your candle for all to see it

Take your candle, and go light your world

Take your candle, and go light your world

Cause we are a family whose hearts are blazing

So let's raise our candles and light up the sky

Praying to our father, in the name of Jesus

Make us a beacon in darkest times