Tagged by Daniel Chen aka Tin Kosong and Pauline~

Your 5 impressions on him/her- HIM>friendly, quiet, crazy, funny, loud, talented[6!?]
HER>talented, quiet[diam2 ubi berisi], kind, generous[seriously!]

Most memorable things he/she has give/done to you :- HIM>pour water on me on my bday[berpakat ngan Ven]
HER>brought me to her cell group

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is because :- dunno...you?

5 things found in my bag - stationaries, mirrors[yay], student card, rubbish, wallet

5 things found in my wallet - money, some coins, IC, photo stickers, cards

5 favourite things in my room- bed, spongebob bolster, BLANKIE[aw...], bible, light

5 things I always wanted to do- the 5 things that God wants me to do

5 things I am currently into- food, more food, music, more music, guitar

List out the top 5 you would wish for- an acoustic guitar, guitar lessons, a new sony ericsson phone, ................a heart of compassion, and that my family WILL come to know the Lord one day[Amen!]



[You]
First Name – Danielle

Nickname – pig, tze, soong

What do people normally mistake your name as – i'll tell you next time

Birthday – 17th November 1988

Birthplace – Kota Kinabalu

Time of Birth – dunno...you?

Single or taken – Unavailable

Zodiac sign – Scorpio


[Your Appearence]
How tall are you – about 165?

Wish you were taller – OH YES!

Eye color – its either black or REALLY dark brown

Eye color you want - light brown...i think

Natural Hair color – black. very black.

Current Hair color – ada brown sikit...

Short or long hair – in between

Ever dye your hair a bizarre color – tried. it didnt come out as i wanted it to be.

Last time you did something dramatic with your hair – in march. when i went to perm this hairstyle.

Glasses or contacts – glasses

Do you wear make-up – occasionally

Ever had hair extensions – nope


Paint your nails – yeah.


[This or that]
Flowers or Chocolates – both

Pepsi or Coke – both

Rap or Rock – ROCK!!!!!!!!

Relationship or One night stand – relationship

School or Work – none. lol.

Love or Money – love, baby, love!

Movies or Music – both!!!

Country or City – er...this is hard. city.

Sunny or Rainy days – rainy days

Friends or Family – both


[Have you ever]
Lied – yeah

Stole something – yeah

Hurt someone close to you – yeah

Broke someone's heart – yeah

Had your heart broken – yeah

Wondered what was wrong with you – yeah

Wish you were a prince/princess – em.....sometimes

Liked someone who was taken – yep

Shaved your head – never

Been in love – yeah

Used chopsticks – yaaaaa

Sang in the mirror to yourself – ya


[Favorites]
Flower – any

Candy – skittles and gummy bears!!!

Song – any songs by Paramore and Blindside

Scent – Mandy. lol. [Theresa knows this]

Color – black, grey and white

Movie – banyak tu

Singer – Hayley Williams!!!!!!! [no, i'm not copying you, daniel]

Word – word, something

Junk food – many many

Website – tunemybass.com, lefthandedtoons.com

Location – in my room

Animal – cats[meow]

Ever cried over someone – oh yeah

Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself – uh huh

Do you think you're attractive – mmm...

If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose – live happily ever after

Do you play any sports – BIG FAT NO.



I tag:
1. theresa
2. aaron heng kong thai [i like to type your full name, i dunno why]
3. rowena
4. kristen

Do not judge or you'll be judged.

You can not fully live without
Knowing what you're here for right now


You're not here by accident
Life lives


If you don't know the way and you're lost
This truth will bridge the gap and carry you across


-Life [Flyleaf]



Janice...Aunty Kitty...Susan...


the influencial ones ---especially to me
the ones i look up to
the ones who.....somehow know what i want when i'm unsure myself
they teach me what life is all about and what its like to be a Christian...
they're the ones who give words of encouragement when i need it
they're also the ones who prayed and laid hands on me when i'm in desperation, not knowing what to do
you have no idea how much their prayers mean to me
and how glad i am to have them in my life
they make me want to be like them



And I think I'm starting to come alive
Life flooding my veins again


Feel I'm coming back to life
I'm falling
Feel I'm coming back to love
This black crow becoming white dove
Feel I'm coming back to life
I'm falling again
I'm falling in love

The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.

i helped out in the exhibition yesterday(Saturday) in City Mall
i bet all the girls did not enjoy the standing up and walking around in heels for the WHOLE day
i seriously suffered from that. walala
the ONLY thing i enjoyed VERY much was the music performances. ALL of 'em. heh
you can say that it was my first time listening to them playing and singing although we're in the same college and they were undoubtly good
props to them for keeping me awake the whole time. never failed to amuse me.
especially when the 3 vocalists performed! it was amazing! arghhh...now i miss it
then i saw someone familiar. FINALLY, someone who's as tall as mr. Lo.
you know what i'm talking about, theresa ["we're the twin towers!"]
i was happy like a little girl. hehehe

today(Sunday) i went for church service and interchurch youth prayer instead of exhibition
and i'm SO glad i did. hahahaha... but i missed the music performances =(
oh well...life goes on... hehe
on a lighter note, i went for the rock and jazz concert just now
though i was already half dead halfway through the event. rar.
but i enjoyed alot! kinda inspired to play music in the future. aiseh. in powerhouse saja la
ada hope bah. tsk. aaron has faith in me [mengada-ada]
he owes me mango pudding btw [note to self]
oh yeah, youth prayer meeting was...great
i feel refreshed again. His presence was so strong that ppl just had to kneel and bow.
i want more, Jesus. More and more of You.

i was a bit frustrated by the powerpoint.
and song manager doesnt have most of the songs. probably ALL. so blah.
so as i was trying to keep up with the worship team, ppl one by one started to turn and look at me and the PA team. a bit awkward. and pressurized.

now the GOOD news is...................................

*drum rolls*

its DANIEL CHEN's BIRTHDAY! [look. you're now one year older.]
its a bit late but i want to wish Happy Belated Birthday to Uncle Stanley as well~~
Rowie's Bday coming soon..................................................RAR...i mean...meow

i still owe Matthew...food. [again note to self]


Lock the doors
Cause I'd like to capture this voice
That came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

Theresa told me to promote this...

SIA Exhibition
26 - 27 April (Saturday and Sunday)
12pm - 9pm
City Mall

but it's Mission Sunday this week.
followed by interchurch prayer!
*ahem. sorry theresa.

oh... watched Over Her Dead Body today
i personally think that Eva Longoria is very pretty!
overall the movie was good.....
em...yeah... i'm just not good in elaborating the synopsis of the movie
but its definitely worth my 5 bucks
but i wanted to watch Definitely, Maybe
oh well

just to inform ALL of you...
i'll be changing my number...hp number...
ASK ME!!! hahahahaha...i only texted some ppl... malas wanna text liao
weeeeee.....this blog is indeed useful

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Specially to Amanda Lok--i mean--Minton

i'm very sorry but i have to say this.....
and i MUST!!!

i.......

i..............




I LOVE PARAMORE MORE than Elliot Minor!

And.....
i kesian Joe =(


i'm gonna tell Ed that you still have feelings for Joe
mehehehehhehehe......

if only time flew like a dove...

clicky

the above link pretty much sums up what i want to say......



just a little add-ons

12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. -Ephesians 6:12



was leading prayer meeting in college on thursday
so i took the opportunity to share about spiritual warfare [like what Elder Weng Kong shared previously]
as my friends and i began to share our experiences or so to say "encounters", Joy said something that startled me
"...we're not against the flesh but the evil forces that are controlling the flesh..."
it strucked me like a lightning. lol
and it sorta opened up my eyes a bit

i used to hate ppl because of the things they have done but it never came across my mind that they lives are actually being controlled by the evil ones when they don't have Jesus in their lives
and when i start to have hatred and bitterness in my heart, thats when i have allowed it to take control of me
grar.....
but thank God for pastors and their sermons.
i still remember Pastor Lee Lee's sermon about handling offences [or was it her who gave the sermon? lol]
weee good one.
but it'll never be useful until i apply it in my life [no?]

tests, trials dan apa-apa saja...

WUHOOOOOOOO
i'm still in a shock!
only theresa knows what i'm talking about
so many things going on in college right now
sometimes you feel home sometimes you just don't

ok this is so challenging
even myself is struggling
but first i'm gonna start with.....me
revival gotta start within me
then it shall spread..... SPREAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA........... *fades out*

p/s: this is not just an ordinary ranting [everyone says WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO]

Your will be done

i cant bear to let anything bad happen to my loved ones
but if it really happens, does it happen for a reason?
if everything happens for a reason, what is it then?
even if we, Your children, face the worst problem in the darkest hour, would You still reveal Yourself to us?


for now, of course i would answer in faith that God is with us and nothing can bring us down
but IF something very bad(even to the worst) happens, will i still praise God and declare that Jesus has overcome the world? i wonder...
even if i made it through once, will i still be able to stand when the worst happens?
will i be like Job...



I am outside
And I've been waiting for the sun
And with my wide eyes
I've seen worlds that don't belong
My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize
Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside
Your arms like towers
Tower over me

Cause we are broken
What must we do to restore
Our innocence
And oh the promise we adored
Give us life again cause we just wanna be home

Lock the doors
Cause I'd like to capture this voice
That came to me tonight
So everyone will have a choice
And under red lights
I'll show myself it wasn't forged
We're at war
We live like this

And I'll take the truth at any cost

i climb, i slip, i fall
reaching for your hands
but i lay here all alone
sweating all your blood
if i could find out how
to make you listen now
because i'm starving for you here
with my undying love and i...
i will

breathe for love tomorrow
cos there's no hope for today
breathe for love tomorrow
cos maybe there's another way

I escaped but.

there's at least ONCE in our lives where we just feel like giving up
doesn't matter what it is
it could be our very own lives, job, studies, any kind of ministry, dreams...and God
i have wanted to give up on God back then
especially when i don't see good results of my perseverance
i have wanted to give up on powerhouse before
when things just didn't seem right and i felt it's not worth it anymore
all i wanted to do is to run away

faith tested.
failed.

many times i've failed the test
i fell and never learned

And when it rains
Will you always find an escape?
Just running away
From all the ones who love you
From everything

maybe its good to ask God questions
He always gives me answers that i can never think of
and i always realize how faithless i can be sometimes when God is forever faithful
most of the time i'm unaware of what God is trying to tell me
simply because i'm ignorant
well, i'm learning from my mistakes...
it's not gonna be a one night process but hey, i have nothing to lose as long as i don't give up
though it may be hard...God never said i have to go through this alone
in fact, He'll never quit on me!
i know He's at work and all i have to do is trust

We cannot know the heart of God unless we have a heart for God.

Silence

I WANT TO SING
UNTIL I AM LOST IN YOUR LOVE
TILL I'M FOUND IN YOUR PRESENCE
WORSHIPPING BEFORE YOUR THRONE
MOVE BY YOUR SPIRIT
ENTERING INTO YOUR FLOW
HOW PRECIOUS THIS MOMENT
LORD I WANT YOU TO KNOW

IT'S YOU, YOU WHO HAVE WON MY HEART
TAKEN ME INTO YOUR ARMS
COMFORTED ME LIKE A FRIEND
YOUR LOVE
SURROUNDED ME FROM THE START
I NEVER WANT TO BE APART
FROM YOU EVER AGAIN

My heart was heavy even before I reached the place
I went in and stood there not knowing what to do next
I observed the people around me
I didn't want to let go of the chance
So I closed my eyes and waited
I didn't speak
I just wanted to seek
In complete silence
Suddenly I felt peace
I smiled
Because He knows my heart

Nostalgia

What is the one criteria your future wife/husband must have?

I used to dream about marrying a handsome guy who loves me whole-heartedly and live happily ever after. Full stop. [yeah, thats how simple i wanted it to be...well, i was only about or around 10! what do you expect? woah...i didnt even want to have babies! cos pain mah...]

Now as I think back the question, no doubt that I want him to be a godly man. Who follows and loves God whole-heartedly. And then it hit me, am I being godly myself?

I don't wanna disappoint God and him.

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. [Proverbs 31:36]

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Barbara Streisand - Smile

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying?
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying?
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

It was after crying when I heard this song for the very first time
I still remember that moment, I felt nothing but numbness
Relieved yet empty.

Smile even though my heart is aching? what the heck.
I was like, this song doesn't help at all. RAR! leave meee!!!
So i had a really bad impression of this song ever since then. HAHAHA
And lately I just heard the song again
I smiled, thinking how foolish I've been, to let emotions take control of me all the time
Be sad, depressed, angry whenever I want to
sulk when things don't go my way

Thanks, pig. It was you who let me listen to this song. Probably you don't remember, but I do.

time and confusion

why things still seem complicated?

is it the jealousy?
is it the desperation?
or is it just simply the hunger for Love?

all i can do now is pray...
only God knows what's best
and i'm trusting Him for that
He shall be the center of this no matter what

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i wish i can help you, but you need to learn to make a step forward yourself
yeah, i may not fully understand your situation/what you're going through in life, family, friends, bla bla bla
who am i to tell you what to do right? [sorry cause i care!]
but just to tell you that... i've always treasured you as a friend despite the crap that happened
i dunno how you think of me now
i'm just praying that you will find true satisfaction and freedom in the Lord...in His Love

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God, it's You that keeps me above the surface!

i was reading someone's blog
i read the some of the most inspirational posts that i've ever read...so far
once again i feel that i need to be humbled by God
in this life...there's so much to see
so much to hear
so much to learn
so much to give...
so much to love!

have you ever wondered why are you a Christian?
have you ever wondered what have you done for God after being a Christian?

Christian. It will not only be a title, but I wanna strive to be a true Christian.
i'm tired of being selfish...keeping things to myself that belongs to God
hiding His love inside me and not willing to share
and also planting the seed of bitterness inside my heart
how can i be so ignorant?

"I was on the highway to hell, and it was Christ who stepped down into my world to give me a ride to the path to heaven. No other did the same..."

and this particular verse spoke to me today,

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. [James 1:2-4]

gaaahh...
i just found out SO MANY things today
so awesome
so encouraged
so motivated
just when i thought i'm a nobody in this world...felt so dead
God proved to me that i'm useful!
when i'm weak, thats when God is strong in me!!!!

will you still say, "I love You Lord" and mean it, in times of difficulties?
well, for Him, no matter what He'll still love you!
He said He'll never forsake you
but will you ever forsake Him?

graarrr......i can go on and on and on til you're friggin annoyed by me
but i still wanna say...i've found my ultimate purpose! my true love! yay!

and the book of Job is officially my favourite. huar huar huar

worn out

as i look in the mirror... i see a panda [it sure looks like me. hmmm]
right now...i'm extremely exhausted [i know i should rest but...]


" Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!" - Rocky Balboa [taken from Jaeson Ma's page on Facebook]

by His grace
by His mercy
by His strength that i'm able to do things that i'm not capable of
as each day passes by, i realised more and more that i really cant go on without Him

break my heart for what breaks Yours

i.....want to have a heart of compassion
so random but true
theres nothing more i could ask for
AHH...i'm so desperate

in times of silence...
i wonder if You know what i'm thinking
i wonder if You can see that desire deep down my heart

i found this somewhere and thought i'd share this... though it may not mean anything to you now...but in the future it will!

I'll Carry You Out Every Morning Until Death Do Us Apart

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, she had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore..I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I did'nt have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a months time and she did'nt want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realised she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realise that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote:

I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property , the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

i miss being random

The Outer Rim. The band is Jeff Curry on bass, Norihiko Hibino on sax and computer, Hakuei Kim on piano and keyboards, and Fujii Nobuaki on drums.

this is Hakuei Kim...he plays the keys...i think he has very pretty long fingers lor... and he speaks good english =D but......he's too fair... i dislike guys who are fairer than i am...HAHA...boo


this is Jeff Curry...as you can see...he's holding a bass...really cool bass...hehehe...oh i noticed his expression when playing the bass is very.............er.......indescribable...HAHA...he's so into it everytime he plays
this is Norihiko Hibino...on sax...i noticed he looks sleepy when taking pictures with...ppl...yeah













this is 'the funky hair guy'...muahahaha....yes, i'm not in the pic...oh well... ini christine punya...lol



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its so weird...
i feel SOOOOO weird...
you know why?



i dont crave for tom yam anymore
its so sad!

but i still love tom yam...and yummy desserts [right now, i'm just craving for ice cream]
i wan yogurberry!!!!!
ABC!!!!! and...and..... pisang goreng!!!

ok. enough of food.

i still dunno what exactly i'm gonna do after this...just planned to get a job thats all
whether it has anything to do with design or not...but i hope not
its not what i want to do as a career, after all
drawing is an exception =D

Sometimes our plan does not unfold
The way we thought it would;
But God is always in control
To use it for our good. —Sper

Unexpected changes are opportunities in disguise. [from Our Daily Bread]

somehow i'm feeling nostalgic...
i guess everyone will experience this at least once in their lives

but what can i do? =(

blessed

i thank God for her...
everytime she prays for me...tears well up in my eyes [i dunno why]
everytime we talk.....i enjoy the conversation [even though sometimes i dunno what to reply]
she comforts and encourages me when i'm confused
even when i'm really quiet at times...somehow she knows the right words to say
and her gentle touch soothes me
brr.....
plus...most of the time she's willing to send me home

most of all...she sayang me and i sayang her... i treat her like my mom even though she's not

God, i want to be a blessing in her life too =)

she's one of the best!
but i still love my mommy ok.......