Pencil marks on a wall, I wasn't always this tall
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed
You watched my team win
You watched my team lose
Watched when my bicycle went down again
And when I was weak, unable to speak
Still I could call You by name
And I said, Elbow Healer, Superhero
Come if You can
You said, I Am
Only sixteen, life is so mean
What kind of curfew is at 10pm?
You saw my mistakes
And watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I'd never love again
And when I was weak, unable to speak
Still I could call You by name
And I said Heartache Healer, Secret Keeper
Be my best friend
And you said, I Am
You saw me wear white by pale candlelight
I said forever to what lies ahead
Two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
Too much it might seem when it is 2am
And when I am weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Shepherd, Savior, Pasture Maker
Hold onto my hand
You say, I Am
The winds of change and circumstance blow in and all around us
So we find a foothold that's familiar
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer
When life had begun, I was woven and spun
You let the angels dance around the throne
And who can say when, but they'll dance again
When I am free and finally headed home
I will be weak, unable to speak
Still I will call You by name
Creator, Maker, Life Sustainer
Comforter, Healer, my Redeemer
Lord and King, Beginning and the End
I Am
Yes, I Am
- Nichole Nordeman's "I am"
To influence or be influenced
"Satan uses whatever he can to influence us away from God."
Because.
"Man stood in the place of intimacy that he had lost."
"The devil is all about influence. His desires is to have us take our eyes off God and put them on ourselves.....Our enemy encourages and influences us to move into this same self-willed way. We are more concerned about "I will" than about God's will. So we spend our lives, inside and outside the church, getting what we will."
".....If they can, Satan's host will divert us from giving glory to God and cause us to believe that we are not as close to Him as we think we are."
"Satan lost his place and wants us to lose ours as well"
But.
"Those who have accepted God's grace cannot be separated from Him."
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written: "For Your sake we are killed all day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter." Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. - Romans 8:35-39
faking happiness
so...like...what?
OI SAYUR! - venetia taught me [today]
and... i had the best tom yam but the worst prawns i have ever eaten! AH!
i'm sleepy... reeeaaaaaaally sleepy
but ONE word.
Assignments. yes i'm lovin it! like, really! even though i get to sleep very little everyday...i mean...i enjoy what....i think...oh now i'm sick...great.....i mean...i don like flu...and sore throat...and the coldness...ah yes the coldness.....leave me alone.....oh ya...bye venetia! you're leaving in 14 hours from now....why do you have to leave so soon....like, what the love...blame your col? heh...ah....i havent even started on assignments yet...btw... 1 John 2:13 - my fav...if i'm not mistaken la......cos i'm so tired...my.....brain....still.....functioning bah...ish
time will change my heart?
how long does it takes?
just how long will i have to wait?
why...when...HOW?
deep inside my heart i know i don wan to and you know it...
but it's not our will
maybe i should stop thinking and start to let go
Golden
She's alone tonight with a bitter cup and
She's undone tonight, she's all used up
She's been staring down the demons
Who've been screaming
She's just another so and so
Another so and so
You are golden
You are golden, Child
You are golden
(Don't let go)
(Don't let go tonight)
There's a fear that burns like trash inside
And your shame of the curse that burns your eyes
You've been hiding in your bedroom
Hoping this isn't how the story has to go
It's not the way it goes
It's your book now
You are golden
You are golden, Child
You are golden
(Don't let go)
(Don't let go tonight)
You're a lonely soul in a land of broken hearts
You're far from home, it's a perfect place to start
(Yeah!)
(Burn)
(Burn, Burn!)
So this final verse is a contradiction
And the more we learn the less we know
We've been talkin' about a feeling
We both know inside but couldn't find the words
I couldn't write this verse
I've seldom been so sure
About anything before
Golden
You are Golden, Child
You are Golden
(Don't let go)
(Don't let go tonight)
This world is a dead man down (Golden, you are)
Every breath is a fading crown we wear (Golden, Child, you are)
Like some debilitated king (Golden, don't let go)
Don't let go tonight
The Earth spins and the moon goes round (Golden, you are)
The green comes from the frozen ground (Golden, Child, you are)
And everything will be made new again (Golden)
(Like freedom in spring) (Golden, Golden)
Hey, like freedom in spring, (Golden, you are, hey)
Like freedom in spring (Golden, Child, you are)(Gold...)
Sorry you're not a god
This is what I become after I met Jude.
Tired.
HUNGRY.
i'm tired and HUNGRY.
so...am i more to tired or hungry?
HUNGRY!
yay! correct! full marks for me!
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ARE YOU UNDERSTAND!? (yes, ARE you understand?)
Psalm 125. It's stucked in my head.
I feel like I'm back in high school.
1117
I went to his house.
And I finally understand the situation a little bit more.
But still I understand. It's for the better, I know.
He had a conflict with the management.
Had always been thinking of resigning.
Had always been thinking.....
...And he made his decision with a heavy heart.
I'm still sad about it but I have another feeling. I'm really proud of him.
He's such a big influence in my college. A role model.
So many ppl look up to him cause he helped them alot in every way, always helping them to get back on track.
My thoughts changed.
Maybe I shouldn't listen from others anymore about anything. Such as RUMORS.
or GOSSIP. Meaningless. Oh, and ghost stories? MEANINGLESS! (you heard that, Vincent?)
I've been having this feeling..... It came on and off for a few days.
And I have NO IDEA what is it. But... I just feel weird.
I don't care if you don't like the way I blog.
I don't care if you don't think I sound stupid in my posts.
I DON'T CARE, MAN! and woman.
So yeah... it's one of those moments again. AGAIN. and AGAIN.
Somehow I know what you were gonna say.
I wanted to avoid, but I know......I'm still gonna face it sooner or later anyway.
And then it came out, my heart was heavy.
I tried to pull myself together. I know things will be ok.
As long as we put our effort in solving the problem, right?
I received a text from Uncle Francis, saying he resigned FOR GOOD.
I was shocked. Really.
Saddening. Very.
What're we students gonna do without him?
What about the CF that he's been wanting to form for years?
My head was filled with questions.
"If he's leaving, I'm leaving too," my friends said.
At that moment, I felt a bit angry.
Did he choose the right decision at the right time?
If it's so, I need to know WHY.
I do care.
Guess.
As I recall with my stomach turning
I was hiding away from myself, away from you
Like nothing, though something was terribly wrong
And I admit that I was only waiting for the right time
Night time, the right moment for you to look away
Though you never did, I pretended for a while
So I could walk where I dont belong
Sorry, this is where I feel most sane.
Manda.
yeap. this is amanda. she's funny.