you've just been poked.

as I was reading His Word this morning, suddenly I was so scared almost trembling almost brought me to tears
the fear and guilt were overwhelming
for a moment I couldn't speak, just stared into space
the only thing I could think of is ...His will be done
nothing else.
but I wasn't looking forward to life...to future
I was afraid of seeing God face to face
and for the first time I was afraid of heaven

I just remember myself saying,
I'm a sinner. God, I've sinned against you.
I've sinned so much. So much... I can't turn back.
Do whatever You want to me. I deserve it.

In my heart I know He was saying,
I love you.

Why? Why a sinner like me? Why?

Because I AM.
I am love.

It was clear.
His greatest power is LOVE, not to punish me.


this song, Majesty, played during prayer meeting just now.
me, on laptop as usual
others were singing but I read through the lyrics iin the chorus
Jesus who died, now glorified
King of all kings

then it hit me. Jesus died. for me. for my sins.
suddenly the burden feels much lighter as WGK shared this verse
Matthew 11:28-30

Perfect.