i am a friend of God...this is quite random

i think it's amazing how God works in our lives
in so many ways, but with one purpose
as i quiet down myself before God, i never failed to ask..
"why do you still love me so much?"
after all i've done
after all i've went through
to the point where i almost gave up loving
overwhelmed by excessive grief
and thank God i realised...
He is so much more than we can ever comprehend

"..Surely I spoke of things I did not understand,
things too wonderful for me to know." - Job 42:3

you see. i really like the book of Job. [and Jonah...Proverbs...Corinthians...Psalm...AHH STOP IT!]
sufferings. perseverance. endurance. patience.
and he never blamed God for what happened
although i never blamed God, but i questioned alot and without my knowledge, i tend to doubt and self-pity [which leads to depression]
God sent me ppl that i dont want to love
God sent me trials to test my faith
God quiets Himself, yet still watching over me
God calls me friend...
the more i ponder about everything He is and what He's done,
the more i feel small...
He has his own way of answering prayers but sometimes we just failed to notice

oh...i remember i read somewhere there was a prophecy for China before the earthquake actually happened
only 2 words.
"Shake, shake!"
when i read that i was like this O.O
i believe God is moving.....
the disasters...God's will but with a purpose
it's like open doors for us to reach out and for them to rise up


wow.