So rise up, my friend

I wrote this yesterday:

Feeling amazed, yet burdened at the same time.

I went for Eklektos service on saturday night and i had a really great time. First, Janice and Vector performed a song called Rise Up. The lyrics spoke to me. It's so nice and inspiring! Then the speaker of the night and also a musician and missionary (= musicianary), Rob Berg, sang a few songs of his own. [oh yeah, i like him] He ended with a song and words of love and encouragement. When he was singing, i was drowned into the song and can't help but gazed upon His beauty. It was a beautiful moment. During the ministry time, i was in deep thought. Suddenly i felt like a hypocrite again. I never seemed to have a consistent devotion. I can't seem to have a consistent walk with God. It was awful cause i know it's my fault and i'm the one who's falling away from Him. So ya, i'm glad i shared with aaronhengkongthai. We even prayed for each other! Its funny and weird cause both of us hardly share about our spiritual lives to one another. But at the same time its GOOD to have someone you're accountable to and trust. [everyone nod your head] ok, move on...

i managed to share abit of Aunt Janny's testimony to my parents. What was i thinking...i never shared any testimonies to them before! It was like a first step to reach out to them... yay!

today early morning i read Our Journey about restoration. It says We need to be refreshed and restored every single day that we may not be weary and such. As i read through the whole thing, i felt like something hit me. Before that i always feel exhausted and exasperated i just want to lie down and sleep all the way but after reading that, i realised i've forgotten how to renew my strength and have my soul restored when its so easy. Just set aside time to be in God's presence is all i need. I turned to Psalm 63 and realised that i marked that whole chapter so i read everything and found my own handwriting at the bottom of the page. "True satisfaction comes from Him alone!" I was.....like.......so encouraged.

Suddenly after that i felt...discouraged...em...something brought me down again lah. And i thought i might as well just go out with my sis and forget about everything. So i went out.....met the Wong family. A college friend whom i havent met for a long time texted me all of a sudden. Then "accidentally" met Daniel David Elaine and Yvonne while having early dinner. Oh ya! i met my ex classmate too! Then was on the way to growball to watch movie Narnia 2, met Matthew. Then FINALLY in the cinema.....saw 3 too-familiar-ppl. Elsha, Charlotte and Jessica. Woah, what a day!

Ohhhhhyessssss i need to talk about Narnia!!!! The movie never failed to amaze me! I watched part 1 so at least i understand the part 2 lah. So nice loh. See, sampai the sabahan slang all keluar. This movie brings out a message which is very familiar to many of us Christians but it's thought-provoking too. There was this scene when the lion, Aslan, asked the little princess "Why didnt you come to me?" (something like that) then she answered, "I was afraid of coming alone" Immediately i felt like God was having that conversation with me. It was so real. Ahhhhh....... fear has taken control of me i guess... God spoke to me through many situations that i'll never forget.

It's time to rise up.

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Today...
i want to tell you that...
if you pray for a heart of compassion...
God will give you opportunities to love and appreciate others more
He will give you that extra sensitivity towards ppl around you
He will open up your heart to see ppl like how He sees them

Ask and you will receive...but you must also believe when you pray...