Tuesday, October 31, 2006

I've finally experienced the..... sufferings of..... menganggur-ing. (Yes, laugh all you can now.)

After all what I can do everyday (especially on weekdays) is to online. I could just stay in front of the computer 24/7. And I could blog about this EVERY SINGLE DAY. Yeap, you would see the same post until something interesting happened. (Which I dunno when but... soon, I guess. Hopefully.)

So stop reading! NOW! Stop pressing that Refresh button! Wait... Why would you wanna press it anyway? (I realised I really like to talk to myself. Self-debating. Weird? OK. It's not too late to leave this page now.)

Anywaaaaaaaay, I've been confusing myself alot these days. Thinking things that I should not. Struggling with things that aren't mine. And I can't lose what I never had. So... in the end, NOTHING TO LOSE! (Don't understand what I'm talking? It's ok, I still care for you.)

I'm feeling much better today after the dizziness I had which lasted for a few days. But feeling a bit down.

Probably God is trying to test me with the... little things around me. And I'm still gonna say this --- I need MORE patience. I don't wanna sulk everyday.

At times I feel like God is so far from me. I just want someone to be there for me... Then again, I thought to myself, "Gees... Is attention all that I want? I'm so pathetic."

If you would speak to me, Lord...




"For now, is it worth it to be sad, if it's harder to be glad to be alive?"

 

2 comments?:

Anonymous 6:15 PM  

..
i guess that .. guess only la.
you facing spiritual warfare?
... guessing.
sad.
you kow..
if you are still sad about things like.
..
friendship. you know what i mean.
being sulky and all that.
idk. im js guessing.

why not start a new life. .. gah. i go your house later lah. hahahaha

forget what i said. *fairy dust##

Anonymous 6:18 PM  

well anyway i continue lah.

js go on in life with prayers.

lifting everything you want to Jesus who died but is now alive.
"lift up your burden, on Jesus. for He cares, for you,"

well..
yah. sulky..
i know that.
i do that too. i am facing sth like that too. since.. years.
yeah.
trying.
and hoping (got hope in Christ wat) that He would change me. coz. i gave up. im totally waiting for Him to change me.

hey ciao.
reachin your house.

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