no one is too far gone from God's grace

deep within me..theres a sense of curiosity...wanting to know more
wanna start all over again...but i feel that theres something still unsolved
unsettled.
silence.
missing.
wanna know whats wrong but i dont...i pray that God will reveal something to me
so i can do something about it...

"why have you changed? how did it happen in the first place? when?"

i still feel disgusted.

help me to overcome...again i ask, Father.