"big is not strong, strong is strong"

i had a short but great escape from reality for a while.
so many things to do, so little time.
thank God for the place and theresa and joy for bringing me there.
i cant wait for christmas.
and now...back to reality.

i'm annoyed.
annoyed annoyed annoyed.
stressed out.
works that need to be done asap.
less time to rest.
i STILL feel like a zombie.
i need money. cos i owe ppl money. [not loansharks]

i wanna cry so badly cause my heart is aching.
my heart aches for the world.
have you ever felt like that before?
ugh.

i want to be a woman!
but what makes one a man/woman?
someone who is able to make big decisions.
yes.
i want to make wise decisions.


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let me type.
i dont wanna talk.

you know, its one of those moments again.
i really dont feel like talking.
or joke.

God, be my escape!