Letting go is beautiful

so i permed my hair last week
mom brought me to a salon and i wasnt supposed to ...do anything to my hair
then the (annoying)hairdresser [oops] suggested that i cut or perm my hair
i was so tired and moody...i just said..."mmmm...whatever"
but didnt know it'll turn out like this [totally unexpected]
some ppl said not nice... some ppl said nice...
but it seems like i focused more on the negative comments [no matter how much i like this hairstyle]
and you know, all these years...in my 19 years of life, i have been like that
being indecisive and always focus on the negative side of things [no matter how right or wrong i am, no matter how ppl try to convince me of something, and even though its over.....i, as a human, tend to dwell in the past]
and sometimes i just blame myself for thinking too much
and maybe....its just because i spent too much time slacking
or maybe... i really think too much

Sinking cause I know, I know I think too much
Save me, please save me...

Jesus please save me

I'm dying to myself. You take control.