perseverance. MORE.

"I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted...Surely I spoke things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know...Therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes." - Job 42

there were times when i forgot that God is in control
too many times...
i mean...God doesnt just work in one way right?
there will be tests and trials anytime anywhere
there will be many times when God wants me to learn
whether in self-discipline, patience, kindness...etc
and God may test my faith in any kind of situations
[sometimes i may not be aware of it]
many times i failed the test.
now what, God?

today.....is the day i'm gonna find rest in Him
too many things going on [in my mind]
O Lord, renew my mind, restore my heart, for I'm weary and burdened

i want to scream right now...like a mad woman
i feel like nobody understands what i'm feeling now, except God
i really need rest.
wake me up when september ends?
haih...

time and initiative...
i feel like you're pushing me
at this moment, i just want to be left alone and soak into Your love...
i rather be lost in Your love than being lost in this world and this mind