a bit random. i dunno.

No matter how desperate... just how much I want to, I can't change a person.

"Why can't they do this/that for me?" "I've done so much but what do I get in return?" "Why am I treated like this?" "I don't deserve it." ................................."Why can't you be more caring?"

It's like when you helped a friend to do something, then he/she was being oh so friendly and all. And when you're in need, he/she doesn't seem to care even though you've asked for their help over and over again. But then it could be like, they complain at very little things when you've done your best to help them.

After that, some may let their anger out on someone else.

Or when you're in a relationship, sometimes you feel that it's one-sided. You don't feel loved.

You love a person so much but he/she doesn't love you at all or doesn't love you AS much. And so you sacrificed alot just to get their love in return. But little did they know.

"Maybe I should stop caring."

"And that's when you should start worrying."

Then you think of excuses. You want their attention so badly it hurts.

I am going to do this. Do that. So he/she will love me more. Or at least he/she would notice me a little bit more.

And before you realised is that you want more from them.

I've complained so much, yes.

In the end I would be asking myself, "What is it really and how much I've done for them?"

Yeah it may be saddening and hurting me real bad. But it can't be compared to the pain that He felt for this world.

Lord,

Fix me. Break me. Crush me. That I may become more faithful.